It’s a rare thing to discover what you’re meant to do in life.  I cannot tell you the amount of joy my heart expresses when I’m holding a camera.  Making people smile, seeing things from a different perspective than somebody else, and using every ounce of energy I have to create an image makes me soar.  I also know that it’s a rare thing to discover what you’re meant to do in life and have it automatically happen. The past two weeks without my full-time job have been an adjustment for me.  I began to fear the unknown.  The little knots in my stomach crept up my throat like jelly beans and I realized that the break in routine from going to work every day has left my heart feeling puzzled.  Did I do the right thing?  Did I quit my job at the right time?  

I’ve found myself praying about this more often than not lately and the only definite answer I have received is that it’s okay to dream.  It’s okay to have a creative vision with seemingly untouchable ambitions and poor judgement.  It’s all okay because maybe, maybe this is where life begins.  The kind of life you start living because it comes naturally; with no hesitation or comparison or doubt.  The kind of life that goes beyond your hobbies, friendships, family, and occupation.  The one where it's just you and nothing else.  This act of freedom was a huge storm of sadness for me at first as I am one of those people that loves to work.  I like being challenged and completing projects and seeing that lists have been checked off.  I’m also a thinker, a wide eyed dreamer with a new business idea simmering up in the back of my mind at all times.  And so I’ve come to the conclusion that while I may not have a shoot lined up every day of the week or somewhere to go for forty hours, my full-time plan is to keep believing that I will.  Life is filled with opportunities and if one happens to cross my path in the next weeks ahead, I'll compose my indecisive heart when it gets there.  But for now, trusting that faith brings happiness and a sense of security is the only place you’ll find my heart these days.

And He said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”  Luke 7:50

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Are you ready to chase your dreams?  To breaks free from the monotony of your routine and discover something more?  Your creative vision starts with your deepest self.  Ask yourself, what are you good at?  What are your gifts?  How can you share them with the world?  When I realized that my gifts will never be found in a tiny cubicle with a 3X3 pillar in the middle of it, I also realized I am free.  I am whole.  I am love, and I am not afraid.